So I know I mentioned in my last post that I am now ready to talk about my husbands problem. However, after thinking it over a couple of days I have decided to hold off on that for now. The timing doesn’t seem quite right – there is a slight hold-up in the divorce process. Here’s to hoping I will be free from all this soon!
Another reason I am debating revealing what his problem was, is that I wonder if my talking about it would be equal to stooping to his (rather low) level. I am well aware of the crap and lies that him and his parents have spread about me. Have heard enough things from various sources to know they tried to make me look bad to whoever would listen. That is why on the one hand I want the world to know why whatever has occurred, happened. On the other, I don’t want to seem like I sunk to their level with the mud-slinging. Even though any thing that comes out of my mouth will be absolute truth. In any event, that post will ave to wait till my divorce gets finalised!
In the mean time I am happy to report that I am back with my family and friends – more on that later..
1.Choose a personal theme tune early on and stick with it. This is extremely useful for the cinematic enhancement of dramatic life moments such as break-ups, anniversaries and celebrations. It will also provide comfort during time spent on runways waiting for Easy Jet flights to take off (approx. 98 hours in the average lifetime), childbirth and terrible sex. My theme tune for example, is Saturday Night Fever and when my daughters were born, there was only wah-wah guitar in my head. That and the vision John Travolta’s white nylon-clad buttocks. But that’s Pethidine for you.
2. Enjoy those perky nugga nuggas. One day you will be able to tune into Radio 4 with them.
3. Laugh often. Some day this will be accompanied by small amounts of wee.
4. Whereas I could floss my teeth with your underwear, you could raise a small family of baboons in mine.
I know I haven’t been blogging of late. Actually, I haven’t written anything in a long time.
Initially the reason for not being to write was that I was incredibly busy recently. My wonderful cousin is having a baby soon, and I was busy planning her entire baby shower. All my preparations, for what I hope will be a grand and fun baby shower, are now complete and I am just waiting for the actual day to throw the party.
The main reason for not writing though is that I don’t find myself in the right frame of mind to write. Once again complications have arisen in my already nasty separation/divorce process. And although I seem fine on the surface, I don’t feel so good mentally and emotionally. I can’t seem to concentrate on and enjoy the things I love doing in my alone time.
I think of topics I want to write about and find myself unable to type a word. I have also kind of given up on reading ‘The Happiness Project’.
Actually… If I am really honest, I gave up on that book a while ago. I reached Chapter 2, read the first page of the chapter, put down the book and haven’t been able to pick it up again. Chapter 2, called ‘Remember Love’, is about the author’s decision to find more happiness and satisfaction out of an already happy and loving marriage.
Maybe it’s just me, but that’s the last thing a person going through a divorce wants to read about. Especially a person who fought hard, day and night, to make her marriage work; happy, full of love and respect. And failed. Not because she gave up or didn’t do enough. But because her partner never made an effort himself; or appreciated hers.
I need to find my way out of this funk. Maybe I just need to force myself to write, like I did today. It soothes me.
For nearly thirty years, ArLynn Presser avoided leaving her neighborhood in Winnetka, Illinois, as she would experience debilitating anxiety and panic attacks when visiting public places and interacting with people outside her home.
But once she turned fifty, the romance writer decided that she was tired of living in isolation, and ready to face her greatest fear. On December 31, 2010 she started a blog at ArLynnPresser.WordPress.com and wrote in her first post, “My New Year’s resolution is to meet every Facebook friend I have.”
And so she spent 2011 visiting friends all over the world (and meeting some for the very first time). Her son Joseph accompanied her on the journey, recording video clips for ArLynn to share on her blog, which she’s been updating regularly since announcing her resolution on New Year’s Eve 2011. By the end of the year she had been to 13 different countries and…
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